Holidays can bring with them a special kind of stress and anxiety and potentially sadness.
(Well, that's heavy! It gets better, I promise!)
We all have triggers that play our learned emotional stories back in our minds. It's not always conscious. Often our bodies remember the feelings, and our minds play right along. We're human, it's a survival thing. But, I am in the process of unlearning my holiday stressors and triggers and re-writing the joy back in because you know what? We get to choose! It's been a process of years but every year gets better.
Here's where this is all coming from...
This morning I gave myself space to just feel what I was feeling. I slept in a bit, didn't push myself as I will often do. (Hi, My name is Erin, and I'm a perfectionist). I worked on a creative project, and I gave myself permission to just feel. Then after I had processed a bit, I wrote this. And put on some empowering podcasts and just keep forgiving myself every minute for my feelings.
Some of my favorite podcasts to help keep my afloat and positive are: Under The Skin with Russell Brand (good one out recently, loved loved loved his book too! HIGHLY recommend), Sean Croxton’s Quote of the Day, and Gala Darling’s Wonderland Sessions which are live video chats and amazingly motivating and powerful.
A big part of my "Holiday Habits Reform" is to stop putting so much damn pressure on myself! Holy expectations bat man, chillllllll!!
Stop with the things I put onto my own plate - such as - making every single gift, pleasing everyone, procrastinating, pushing in the wrong moments, etc. Shopping together instead of making it only my job not only relieved me of that stress, but it was fun and an empowering experience to do as a couple. One big game changer has been asking for support. Calling my mom or friends immediately and being honest, feeling and moving on. Not letting things fester or spiral or play on repeat. Working through tough/uncomfortable things as they arise rather than letting the emotions save up for later and creating a cold, oppressive emotional cloud. This is one of the biggest parts...
I can teeter on the line of falling into depression or let anxiety rule my day, and end up getting "nothing" done, flitting from one urgent thing to the other urgent things. Or worse, I will get valuable things done and just won't allow myself to see the value in what I did actually accomplish! Oi! Do you do this too? I'm sure I'm not alone!
With awareness comes the power of choice. Being aware that my past attempts to change habits have failed, gives me the power to change it.
Here is my manifesto for change for me to revisit when I feel lost, or unmotivated, or without hope:
I want to make fundamental changes to my inner landscape, to take my emotions back into my own power, and not allow external things, others, old stories I tell myself, rattle my inner resolve of standing in my own power, creatively, financially, spiritually, emotionally, and most importantly, I no longer allow those negative feelings to remove the essential element of JOY from my life! I refuse to let anything other than my own self define my days in the way that I want - specifically I refuse to let me EGO mind rule the roost and I reframe my focus onto my true desires. I trust that the Universe has my back, and that the Universe/God/Higher Power/Consciousness is good, supports my highest self, and my deepest truest desires, and has more than enough space for us all to live our best lives. I see those desires already manifested in my life, I see myself in that light, and I commit to the discipline it will take to get there. I commit FULLY AND WHOLE HEARTEDLY to myself. I do not want to grow old and look back and wish that I had just admitted that my ego mind doesn’t know best, its just based in fear and scarcity. I choose to move forward and live a life that I am in love with.
This is where things like Oula come in. My community of strong, amazing women, who help support me, and I them, in a space of safety for one another. Things like getting outside, exercising, and staying in touch with family and friends regularly helps immensely. Engaging in life - my relationship, my art, simple pleasures, and self love rituals. It can be tempting to play the victim and allow things outside ourselves to dictate & instigate reactions and choices, but we must stay true to our most deepest desires, our true self, and face the fear.
Sounds like I need to finish reading Brené Brown’s, Braving the Wilderness, because that is exactly what I feel I need to do... Walk through the heavy wooden door, cold air whipping past, chilling my bones, snow, ice making vision impossible, and still trudging through, still deciding to walk through the chilling facade, to climb the mountain, walk the road, share deep stuff with others, showing my fears, and allowing more ease & joy into my life. Choosing to reach what ever warmth is on the other side. (Painting inspo right here...)
I am sharing here because it’s empowering to do so, and helps me not feel alone - when we’re maybe teetering on our edge. When we see ourselves begin to slip, when we notice those patterns, amp up the support modes, call in the troops, and dig your heels in. Get tough on yourself. Listen to empowering things. I refuse to let my ego mind rule me. I choose to live from my inner radiance. That warm sense of inner knowing, that uncomplicated place of love that we all have within us - no matter what.
May your holidays and every day be joyful, peaceful, restful, and filled with loving snuggles.
NAMASTE. You are radiant.
Thanks so much for being a part of the Radiant Fibers Tribe, and I have a long awaited item for you all! I have a love for tea, as many of you likely know already. And nothing makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside like a special mug!
I have been wanting to create a mug for some time now, and I am excited to release this debut RADIANT FIBERS MERCH to you all just in time for holiday gift giving!!
I wanted it to not only be perfect to give to those who you find radiant, but also a moment of self love and positivity. It's available now and it wont be available for long!! Be sure to reserve yours now, and share with your friends! <3
Here is the description from the Teespring page to really convince you! ;)
"Shine with every fiber of your being with this "You Are Radiant" Mug from Radiant Fibers!
This is a great stocking stuffer for the radiant beings in your life.
Say thank you to them with this nod to their brilliance.
Give one to those who you'd like to empower & those who you feel empowered by.
Get one for yourself, since you are a shining, bright, brilliant, radiant being.
Every sip you take from this mug will warm your radiant heart.
Picture yourself sipping you favorite tea, coffee, hot cocoa, or hot cider, in this super cute mug, snuggled up with your book, crocheting, and furry friend by the fire this winter.
I love crocheting! I don't think that will be much of a surprise to a lot of you... I learned to crochet when I was around 8 or 9 and remember the day. We were sitting on my Grammie's boat, it was a nice day, not too hot out on the lake in that quint essential New England woodsy spot. The sky was a little cloudy, but still bright. I am so glad that I remember that moment, and that I have kept with it all these years.
Now when I do workshops, I share this little story, and it feels good to share a skill that was shared with me, to pass on a tradition and a true craft. I taught this lil' pumpkin workshop at the amazing ArtSpark Creative Studio! They are creating an amazing creative community there.
The pumpkin workshop was well timed - I have several test pumpkins at home to give away during Thanksgiving, and their cuteness will no doubt be admired. Everyone in class was happy with their final product - and that was a big part of why I like this project. So many times people start with a scarf and get bored, or it starts to loose it's shape. This pumpkin project was very forgiving and a quick project. It didn't require perfection on your first try, and the final product, no matter how technically imperfect, was either undetectable or embraced and became part of the pumpkin's finished look.
I hope everyone will take their new skill with them, and keep going with it. It does take practice much like anything else. The most difficult thing to learn (from what I have experienced in teaching) is the gauge and keeping the working yarn not too tight. Letting it slide through your fingers as you use your hook to pull loops through loops.
This comes down to mastering grip and finagling the yarn and hook in such a way that doesn't keep tension on the working yarn*, and maneuvering the hook more so that pulling on the working yarn to keep it on the hook. It's always more about the hook than the yarn... With every workshop I teach, I learn something new too. I've been thinking about how "creativity creates community" and I just really dig that idea... It's not a one sided exchange when we share creative techniques or skills or ideas, it's a community of creativity.
Creativity I think is a cornerstone of our human existence! Do you agree? What roll does creativity play in your life? Could you incorporate more creativity? And, what is your most favorite thing you've learned from a creative class? Share in the comments! I would love to hear from you!
With all the radiance,
-Erin : )
*Working Yarn = The string of yarn that is coming from the ball that you're making loops with to continue the work you've already finished.
EXCLUSIVE Unicorn yarn bowl REVEAL!!
In the video I share why unicorns are a spirit animal for me, some unicorn facts & history, plus the all important & enticing UNBOXING! The yarn bowl is super cute, larger than I thought it would be and did I mention cute??!! It’s available from @DarnGoodYarn for pre-order now!
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This experience was much less awful than I imagined, but not great as to be expected. It was fine the day of - surgery went well - two full bony impacted and one that had come through. I had two tops and one bottom - so the bottom one hurts more, which is typical. So if you only have tops, don't even worry about it!
But overall, the hardest part is the mental game of healing. After a few days have passed since this was filmed I am at the point where it's almost like an internal scab when it gets itchy. It's just annoying, sore not really pain, very distracting. I've found that the Advil is still helpful at this point... But enjoy these few tips and such!
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